ALAM MO ?

You know that feeling? 
When you're just waiting. 


Waiting to get home, 
into your room, close the door, 
fall into bed, and just let everything 
out that you kept in all day. 


That feeling of both relief and desperation. 
Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. 


And you're tired. 
Tired of everything, tired of nothing. 
And you just want someone 
to be there and tell you it's okay. 


But no one's going to be there. 
And you know you have to 
be strong for yourself, 
because no one can fix you. 


But you're tired of waiting. 
Tired of having to be the 
one to fix yourself and everyone else. 


Tired of being strong. 


And for once, you just want it to be easy. 
To be simple. 
To be helped. 
To be saved. 


But you know you won't be.
But you're still hoping. 
And you're still wishing. 
And you're still staying strong and fighting,
with tears in your eyes. 


You're fighting.

POSSIBLE STEP ?

At some point you will realize
that you have done too much for someone,

That the only next
possible step to do is to stop.

Leave them alone.
Walk away.
It’s not like you’re giving up, and shouldn’t try.

It’s just that you
have to draw the line
of determination from desperation.

What is truly yours
would eventually be yours,
and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

You know?

You know what I'm scared of? That one day you'll wake up and think that I'm not as great as you thought I was. That one day you'll wake up and find that I'm not as cool as before. That one day you'll wake up and find that you don't love me as much as you use to.

I wasn't.

The truth is. I'm not strong enough to let things go. I'm not strong enough to ignore things. I'm not strong enough to move on from things. I'm not strong enough to face or to deal with things. I wish I was, though. I wish I wasn't weak.

Excited.

Hahha.
Nako. Baka magkatotoo.
Awoo.


Hello & goodbye.

#1 Piece of Advice

:|

sino bang gusto ng gising kung 
ganun lang din naman ang buhay niya, 
kung sa panaginip lang yung 
pinakamasayang part ng araw niya. dba ?

dont be like the movies.

we dont live in happily ever afters.

if you wont let yourself be happy, it is okay. you have every right and freedom to torture yourself.

may mga times lang talagang mas masarap managinip.

at one point in time, gigising din naman ako e.

we will be happy whenever we want to. 

di lang siguro ngayon.