Dear 2010.

YOUTH SUMMIT.

 
Nakaget over na ako sa
aming YOUTH SUMMIT.

Masaya.
Nakakabless.
Madami talagang niremind sa akin ang Lord.
Madami siyang tinuro.

Alam mo yung grabe yung rebuke.
Ayun. So, kailangan talaga mag let go.

Ilan sa mga natutunan ko:

1. Suurender everything to Him. Letting go is 100%. Hindi 95%, 99% kundi 100%. That is what you call Total Surrender. As in lahat.
2. Make God your HOME. Tahanan. Kasi gawa iyon sa pagmamahal. Tahanan from the word "Tahan na". Yes, it is a place of belongingness, comfort and Love.
3. Make God you HELP. Wala nang ibang mas nakakaalam kung paano isosolve ang problema mo kundi Siya lang. Siya na ang pinaka. 
4. Make God your HAPPINESS. Therfore, He is your JOY.

Who do you consider as your best friend? The BEST means only one.

Jesus Christ. Dahil siya ang dahilan ng Pasko. :D

Obliterate and obliviate limbos.

Pag binabalikan ka ng ex mo then he says I ove you all the time, ano irereply mo reaction mo dapat ?

Natanong mo na. Read below.

Obliterate and obliviate limbos.

Pag binabalikan ka ng ex mo then he says "I Iove you" all the time, ano irereply mo reaction mo dapat?

Una sa lahat, ang ex ko ay babae so dapat SHE. at kung babae ka naman at nais mo nang kasagutan .. the response would be NOTHING. Wag ka muna assuming. Make sure. Think twice.

Obliterate and obliviate limbos.

Bakit hindi ko mabrowse blogger mo ? Have you seen my new post ? :D

Bakit ka Anon ? BAKIIIIIIT ? At Oo, nagbago na ako ng blogger at hindi ko pa nakikita ang new post mo kasi nga Anon ka. Try mo magpakilala ! TRYYYY MO !

Define my bullshit.

Naramdaman mo na ba yung gusto mo sana makipagusap sa isang tao kasi may problema ka??

Oo. Gusto ko. GUSTONG-GUSTO. Kaso nararamdaman mo din ba na minsan yung taong yun wala siya sa mood, ayaw niya, o talagang wala lang siyang kwentang kausap ?

Define my bullshit.

woo.

Movie Midnight with Mads. Woo. :DD -- Goodnight.


So thank your friend!

Third 4am.

 Pangatlong araw ko na itong
natutulog ng 4am. may naabutan na
nga akong kapitbahay na inabutan akong
nagPPC pa.

Oo. INSOMIAC ako.

Di ako kumportbale sa TUMBLR e.
Kaya dito na lang. Dun ko lang ito
pinapaste.

Okay na yung walang nakakaalam
kaysa naman walang nakakaappreciate.
HAHAHA.

So, gutom kasi ako. kaya di ako
makatulog. ayun.

 Isa pa, buong araw akong tulog.
Kaya mejo wala na ako sa mood.
Ang taas ng antok-tolerance ko. HAHAHA.

Christmas na pala bukas.
Sana maexcite naman ako kahit onti.
Di ko ramdam e. :D

 Basta bukas.
Kahit ayon sa studies, di birthday ni Jesus sa 25.
Wala akong paki.

 The point is, He was born for US.
To save US. He was born just to die for us.
to bring us eternal life. To save us from our sins.
Let us just be thankful. That we are blessed and loved.

 Ayun. narinig ko na yung Lola ko.
Kailangan ko na nga matulog. Goodnight.

 Excited lang siguro ako sa Pasko. HAHAHAH.
Ang haba na. OKay, thanks. :D

Josh and Zac’s Exit Statement

Josh and Zac’s Exit Statement

Hey guys,

Let me start by apologizing to you for the way everything went down on Saturday. I had a statement typed ready to post to you guys but Hayley released one without my permission. We were not going to issue a statement until we worked out our exit agreement with Hayley. I wish it didn’t have to happen that way, Zac and I wanted to be the ones you heard it from. I want to be honest with you guys about how this band formulated from day one. I did not think Hayley’s version told the whole story, at least from our perspective and hopefully this will explain a bit about why we are leaving.

Zac and I had a garage band in high school with the intentions of just making music for the love of it. We met Taylor and our friend Jason Clark at our school and found out that we shared the same musical tastes. So, we asked them to join our band. It was some of the greatest times of our lives playing music in Taylor’s basement with them. We obviously needed a lead singer and one day Zac met Hayley. We asked her to come try out and eventually to join the band.

Months down the road things changed and this band became all about Hayley. She had a manager at the time that controlled her every move along with her parents. They didn’t like the idea of Hayley being in a rock band so they forced her to leave wanting her to pursue a solo career.

Hayley went off to write and record her solo demos while the four of us continued on without her. A couple of months later Hayley came and asked us if she could use the song “Conspiracy” that we had all previously written together. We agreed that that would be fine. I got a call a while after that from Hayley telling me that her manager said that Zac and I were invited to be back in the band (the band we started), but not Taylor and Jason because they weren’t good enough in his eyes. Hayley brought in Jeremy and our first rhythm guitarist Jason Bynum as the other two members.

We travelled to LA a few weeks later for a showcase and it was a nightmare. Hayley’s manager would tell the band to be in the lobby of the hotel at a certain time, but he and Hayley wouldn’t show for hours. We found out that they had been meeting with record label executives all morning without us, which is totally weird given that this wasn’t simply a solo artist, but we were a band. The band was in the dark the whole time. After many meetings between Hayley, her manager and the labels they decided to sign her to Atlantic records. We didn’t understand why Hayley was the only one signing the contract since we were told this was a “band”, but we were too young to grasp all of this. So far, Zac and I haven’t signed with another label, although I guess our part of Paramore sure could. Next thing we knew we were having a signing party for Hayley.

Our next move was to rerecord her solo demos with our own music rather than studio musicians to make it sound more genuine. Meanwhile, we tossed around band names. I wrote out a list of names, including “Paramore”, a name my old band with Taylor and Jason Clark had thought about using. Obviously, we settled on that name. The label received the rerecorded demos and once again tried to fire the entire band, saying we were terrible. Thankfully Hayley and I had been writing some new songs together (Hallelujah, Here We Go Again) that the label was pleased with so that acted as leverage for the band to stay. The label and management then decided to build our band up the grass-roots route. They put Hayley on Fueled by Ramen not making it known she was signed to Atlantic as well. All the while we still questioned whether or not we were an actual band, but Hayley continued to insist we were, despite our being ignored and pushed around by the label.

They then sent us all to Orlando to rehearse and write eight hours a day for our first record. Half -way though this process, Jeremy decided to quit. We were all really upset about it. So we finished the record, replaced Jeremy, and hit the road with Hayley’s father as our tour manager/driver of a twelve-passenger van. Her dad would constantly threaten to “pull the plug” on the whole band if we complained about anything, suggesting that we were hired guns and Hayley was the real artist, when in reality we were also part of the band. We’ve always been treated as less important than Hayley. It’s been obvious how her family views things.

Jeremy ended up rejoining and we toured non-stop for two and half years building our fan base, pretending to be a band that started naturally. In reality, what started as natural somehow morphed into a manufactured product of a major label, riding on the coattails of “Hayley’s dream.”

Before recording our next record, we kicked out Jeremy for his lack of work ethic and participation in things that Zac, Hayley and I didn’t agree with. At this point it was just the three of us to record Riot. Once the record was done, we needed a bassist and another guitarist. Eventually Zac and I convinced Hayley to let Taylor rejoin and she convinced us to let Jeremy back in, promising he had changed his ways.
Once again we hit the road and toured on our biggest record as a band. As you all know Hayley and I dated and broke up during this album cycle. Things then started going downhill for our band. Hayley and Jeremy’s views started changing from what we all once believed in. The band almost split after cancelling a tour in Europe, but we managed to keep it together somehow. This is when Zac and I started to consider quitting the band.

Once we finished touring on Riot, we came home for a break and started writing for Brand New Eyes. Hayley presented lyrics to us that were really negative and we didn’t agree with. For example, “the truth never set me free”, which contradicts what the Bible says in John 8:32 (“and you shall know the truth, and the truth shall sat you free”). We fought her about how her lyrics misrepresented our band and what we stood for, but in the end she got her way. Instead of fighting her any longer, we decided to just roll over and let it go.

Hayley claimed that this record reunited us as band and made us grow closer together, when in reality we were all growing further apart. Suddenly the band had spilt into two sides. Touring became more difficult since we couldn’t agree on anything. The friendships our band once had were no longer existent. Amos 3:3 says, “Can two people walk together without agreeing on the direction”. In addition to the band turmoil, touring had really taken its toll on us both. We left home at such a young age and missed taking part in normal teenage years. When you own part of a band and are constantly playing, you make sacrifices. Touring has taken its toll on our family members as well. I specifically remember many moments where our parents would break down in tears when we had to leave. It broke my heart. Seeing our siblings grow up so much during our absences was never easy either.

After a lot a prayer and counsel Zac and I came to the decision that it was time to leave the band. We truly feel that God is leading us elsewhere and is going to do great things with us. The intention of this statement was not to belittle or disgrace the rest of the band, it was simply to clarify our decision for leaving and our desire to finally tell you guys the truth. We are still hoping to work out a friendly way to leave our part of Paramore intact with the remaining band members, including Hayley.

We want to thank you guys for all of your love and support over the past 7 years. It’s been an honor creating and playing music for you. If music is what God calls us to in the future, we hope that you all will be a part of it.

All of the glory be to God,

Josh and Zac

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Nalungkot. Nagbasa. Nabless. Nakaintindi. At matutuwa nalang bilang suporta. :)

Alas Tres na pala.

 ang sakit ng tiyan ko. Kaya di ako makatulog.
Naenjoy ko naman ang 6 na Party sa isang buong linggo.
At yung Double team ngayong gabi.

 NAG ENJOY AKO. PROMISE.

 Naririnig ko na ang
malapit na chapel sa amin.

Kumakanta sila ng,
"Glo-o-o-o-Glo-o-o-o-ria ! In Excelsis Deo !"

Sana ganon din ang boses ko.
Anyway, narinig ko sila at naalala ko nung
dating may catholic pa sa amin.

Simbang gabi, bibingka
at puto bumbong. Ang sarap
ng feeling. HAHAHAH.

Wala. Ang lamig lang kasi.
Tapos wala lang, parang may thrill.
At dama mo ang lamig ng simoy ng hangin.

Ayun. Namiss ko lang.
Gusto ko lang uli damhin yung
sarap ng Pasko.

"Feliz Navidad, Prospero Ano, Felicidad.", sabi nila.

Napangiti ako.
Inaantok na din kasi ako e.
Goodnight.

Highschool or college friends ? Why ?

Highschool. Best. True.

Define my bullshit.

Paramore.

Paramore is still a band.

Yes, Hayley will still sing for us.

Yes, Taylor York & Jeremy will still do their strings.

But Paramore won't be the same again.

Srsly, they are the reason why I started to love music. I loved music because them. I mean, they were my favorite band and I just can't believe what happened. But it is their decision.

And if they are happy for that, we might be happy as well.

We need to move on.

We want Josh and Zac to do something that makes them happy and if that isn't here with us, then we support them finding happiness elsewhere.

We can't be depressed forever for the loss. We can't argue or force or whatever. All we need is to accept. It's their journey. We just have to watch them and support for them. We just have to understand them. everything has its won consequences and conditions.

This is only the beginning. of a new chapter.

And yes, Paramore is still my band.

Sing us a song, and we’ll sing it back to you. We could sing our own, but what would it be without you?

CAROLING.

Naririnig ko na ang mga batang nagcaCAROLING.

— Namiss ko ang aking kabataan. Namiss ko na wala akong ibang inaalala. Na hindi ko kailangan intindihin ang mga reregaluhan. Hindi ako naiistress.

Dat kasi kahit pagod, masaya. Ang tanging goal ko lang ay SUMAYA. at MAGKAPERA. :))

 Ang emo e no. Gusto ko rin tuloy mangaroling.

ah.. i guess u love the first person who pops in ur mind, right? :)

Oo siguro. depende sa situation. Pero magandang theory yan. Parang ako lang, sa KANYA.

For me to know && For you to find out.

Mahal mo pa ba Sh-a ?

HAAAAA ? Sino ? I-clarify mo !

For me to know && For you to find out.

Sinong namimiss mo at this pont in time ? Why ?

Si Ronilen. :D

For me to know && For you to find out.

Sino SH-a?

Ha ? di kta magets ? May nais ka bang ipahiwatig ? Hahah.

For me to know && For you to find out.

JOKER.

"I have dreamed about her again. I can't understand why my heart has not forgotten her. It seems that during the day my mind is in control, while during the night my heart takes over. I know for the rest of this day I will not think about her. I don't feel sad or lonely. But it seems certain that when I close my eyes I will yearn and cry for her."
 -- Matt, Joker.

REMIND ME NOT.

I have forgotten how much I love you. I'm freer now. I can breathe easily enough on my own. I don't need to hold to a sinking ship when I can swim to safety. There's nothing left there and I am happy.


So just please ..
DON'T EVER REMIND ME.

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Don't ever remind me how we ride that cruise.
How much we tried to steer our ship to safety.
How much we tried to focus on our destination.

But still you have your own islands to stop over.
That I do wait when will you ride back on our ship.
That our stop overs make me wait for you.

Don't ever remind me how much we tried to escape the waves.
How much we enjoyed feeling calm.

Don't ever remind me how our ship sunk.
Just because of an iceberg.
Just because we grow tired of looking forward.

because you have your new ship to ride.

Then I end up being alone.
Like its the end.

Feeling nobody's there to save me.
Because all I am expecting is you.


I am free now. I did survived.
So that is what I am just going to remind myself.

Personality Test

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx