18 years ago.

Ang tunay na kaibigan naaalala ang birthday mo kahit walang Facebook.

“The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.”

— Paulo Coelho

Lately, I've been into music more than into people.

Darating din ang araw na pangalan ko naman ang makikita ko sa listahan ng NLE Passers.

Yung open book na nga ang exam mo, nagrereview ka pa.

Napressure ka lang kasi.

Matutulog ako nang maaga.

Matutulog na ako nang maaga.

Gusto ko na magbago. HAHAHA. Ayoko na ng napupuyat. Masama daw sa brain cells. MASAMA NAMAN TALAGA. Gusto ko na mag-aral nang mabuti. At pumasok kinabukasan sa school na hindi haggard tingnan kasi hindi ako nagmamadali. Gusto ko na rin na hindi ako nahihirapan magising at makailang balik-bangon sa kama.

Pero tinatamad ako. Next time na lang. Ngayon, simpleng matutulog muna ako.

Day 10.

Day 10 - A picture of someone whom you do craziest things with.

1st picture - those were my highschool friends. Meet Jesa and Raymond. We just did the craziest (not really the craziest but sort of) before we graduated. Highschool is the drinking session before college. When the fun usually begins. We did pranks from teachers to students. Just kept the fun in our classroom. Hindi ko nga malimutan ang highschool ko dahil sa kanila. Yung papagalitan ka at mapagsasabihan ka. Tipong mapapansin ka talaga ng iba. That feeling of nervousness and suspense and happiness and sadness together in one emotion. I just can't. Well, the craziest trio ever.

2nd picture - College is the hangover before the adult life. And here I am with Hazel, laughing so hard whenever we feel like we're lonely. We wave at escalators like VIP artists, speak to somebody in an unknown language, laugh till we both roll on the floor dying.


Sorry kung dalawa ang litrato. Sobrang magkaiba lang ng past and present. Time may lessen or stop our bonding times but our fun will never die in our hearts. 

Yung feeling na mas mahaba pa ang middle initial mo kaysa sa tulog mo.

GV people.

Yung mga taong minsan mo lang makausap pero ang gaan-gaan na ng pakiramdam mo. Kahit na akala mo walang sense yung pinag-uuspan niyo, o kaya naman wala ng patutunguhan o kaya naman yung natural na kamustahan lang. Kahit na anong klaseng usapan pa yan.

Sila yung mga taong, di man kumukumpleto ng araw mo, pero pag nakausap mo sila, instant balik good vibes na uli yung araw mo. Sila yung mga taong pag kinausap mo bago ka matulog, mapapa-goodnight ka talaga.

Sarap lang sa pakiramdam. Sana dumami pa sila.

Day 9.

Day 9 - A picture of someone who has gotten you through the most.

What does this even mean ? If this means someone who knows me well ever since, until now, this would be so hard. I always feel nobody ever understands me. My mother would be one. My bestfriend during my elementary days would be one since they're all I've got. My bestfriends when I was in highschool would also be a choice since they've known me for almost 4years. 

Pero sige eto na. Dalawa na muna ngayon PLEASE.

1st picture - My HS friends. Roscelle and Brylle. We're totally laughing out loud when we're together. We have so much stories to tell meaning we really haven't seen each other for a long time. I love how they know what I'm feeling on some days when we're in high school. They know how will I react, respond, do, act, feel or whatever on someone or something or somewhere. We always have this connection, gestures and eye-to-eye-contacts  that we understand quickly. Like we have this empathy link or something. 

2nd picture - Well, Her. She's the 1st one who popped into my mind. She just knows me too well. Familiarized ourselves each other at some point. But that doesn't mean everything will work out just fine. Over familiarity. Thus, too much isn't really good. Yeah, it did hurt, ONCE.

Sana hanggang ngayon, nagkakaintindihan parin TAYONG LAHAT.

Oh. Books.

Guess what I bought today.

The Heroes of Olympus Book #1: The Lost Hero.

Ang yabang ko lang. Eh bakit ? Kinokolekta ko kasi itong series na ito. Well, nasimulan ko na naman yung book. So far, so good. Talagang when you start reading, its really hard to stop yourself. Adventure, romance (na hindi mala-PBB Teens) with Greek mythology. Maaliw ka na sa story, maaliw ka pa sa mga natutunan mo. Talagang aabangan mo ang bawat chapter. Well, hindi na nga ako nakapagreview dahil dito. :))

A must-read book.

This book is available in all leading bookstores nationwide.

“Books are for people who wish they were somewhere else.”

— Mark Twain

Day 8.

Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh.

Eto na talaga yun. Say hi to my college friends. Ang cute ko lang sa picture. Sorry naman, kung eto talaga. Ang cute lang kasi nila pag zinoom na. Ang mean ko. HAHAHA. Sorry na talaga. Enough said. Sabi naman nila, minsan mas okay ang WACKY kasi dun mo makikita ang saya ng barkada.

Anyway, miss ko na kayo. :(

Understanding a Shame-Based Personality

From: http://onlinecounsellingcollege.tumblr.com/

There is a difference between blaming and shaming a person. Blaming is being told you did something wrong. Shaming is being told that there’s something wrong with you, and you’re worthless, bad, inferior or inadequate. Examples of shaming statements include:

• “You were a mistake; I wish I’d never had you”
• “You’re useless; you’ll never amount to anything.”
• “You could never do what he/she does”
• “You’ve ruined my life; you ruin everything for everyone”

Adults shamed in childhood have the following 12 traits:

1. They are afraid to share their true thoughts and feelings with others.
2. They are terrified of intimacy and put up walls in relationships. They also fear commitment as they expect to be rejected.
3. They are often extremely shy, easily embarrassed, and are terrified of being shamed or humiliated. They tend to suffer from debilitating false guilt.
4. They struggle with feelings of worthlessness and believe they are inferior to others. They believe that is something they can never change as worthlessness is at the core of who they are.
5. They often feel ugly and flawed, even when they’re beautiful – and everyone tells them that.
6. They may be narcissistic and act as if they have it all together; alternatively, they may be completely selfless, almost to the point of being a doormat.
7. They are often very defensive and find it hard to bear the slightest criticism. They feel as if they are being constantly watched and judged.
8. They have a pervasive sense of loneliness and always feel like outsiders (even when others genuinely like and love them).
9. They feel controlled – as if they always have to do want others want and say – and this blocks spontaneity.
10. They are perfectionists and usually suffer from performance anxiety. This may also cause them to be procrastinators.
11. They tend to block their feelings through compulsive behaviors like eating disorders, retail therapy or substance-abuse.
12. They find it hard to establish and enforce healthy boundaries with others.

Date Who?

Date a guy who reads. Ever seen a guy spend thousands of bucks at a bookstore. Bookmark him. He is probably the kind of guy you’d like to marry.

Find a guy who loves to read, and I can show you a philosopher, a romantic and a brave-heart. You’ll know him the moment you see him, by the detached look on his face, as if he does not connect with the world except the one that exists in his books. If his eyes light up on seeing a Orhan Pamuk or a Ernest Hemingway, He is the guy.

Ssshhhh !! Just heard a wolf whistle? That’s probably when the guy has found a rare book that he has been searching for days together. Can’t you see that the pages of the book that he carries around are still looking crisp and fresh? He can’t bear to see them soiled. He handles them so carefully, lest they get hurt. It hurts him to see a book without its cover or dog-eared pages and quickly sets about repairing them.

He’s the guy who is having the silently funny conversation with the librarian in the archives. And for a change the librarian is actually talking to him and she is even smiling at him now. Makes you wonder what sort of a charm does he cast. Ask him if he is interested in visiting a used-books stall after the library and he will be taken in.

He is the guy who when sitting in a bus, does not mind the jittery ride and continues to read the book, oblivious to all those beautiful girls around him. He does mind you stepping on his toes as long as you don’t let him take his eyes off his book. No !!! Don’t disturb him now. You are most likely to get an angry glare. Perhaps you might even be ignored.

Don’t pretend in front of him. He can see through you if you are saying things just to sound intelligent. Buy him a cup of coffee and make him talk on the books he loves. You can listen to his eloquent words for hours together. Don’t be scared if you get lost in Middle Earth. He will guide you through. Faust confuses you? He will explain the metaphor to you. He is the guy who does not realize that his tea has become cold and formed layers once he gets his hand on a book. Offer to buy him a book and he will follow you to the end of the world.

Get him books for his birthday, for New Year and Valentine’s Day as well. He is not going to complain. And of course, don’t forget to get the books listed on his wish list for Christmas. The man lives in his own world. No fault of his if he wants his life to resemble his favorite book. It’s probably the only thing he understands.

Disappoint him. Because a man who reads knows that the ointment for disappointment is books. You need not always be there for him. Gift him a book and he will feel your presence. Don’t be something that you are not, to him. He knows that people are like characters. It takes them time to grow. If you find a man who reads, keep him away from society. He is a prized catch.

If you find him depressed for days together, ask him the title of the book that he read. Understand what the story meant to him and hold him. Yes!! Hold him. He needs it very badly. He may not cry, but his hug will speak a thousand words, and his smile will make your day. Prod him and he will talk. He will speak on how he felt as if he was inside the book, and how the decision of the protagonists changed his view on things.

Propose to him – with a bookmark. He will understand. In case he doesn’t, send him a couple of books with a telegram. And when even that doesn’t give him the clue, Write a book and ask him to proofread.

Don’t be surprised if he names your kids with strange names. That was bound to happen. He will show your children the philosophy of being altruistic. He will show the kids how it feels to stop by woods on a snowy evening. And perhaps someday he will show his kids that there is a greater heaven. Who knows, someday you might just be reciting “Lochinvar” under your breath as you walk with him to the supermarket.

Date a guy who reads because you deserve it. He can make your life colorful and yet make you feel grounded. Don’t tempt him with vices of the material world, they mean nothing to him. Show him the way to the world of books and he will show you the way to his heart.

Or better yet, date a guy who writes.

Dear Future Girlfriend, don't worry. AKO ang magiging PRIVATE NURSE mo.

TAMA NA YAN.

INUMAN NA.

May nag-iinuman na naman sa harap ng bahay namin. Natitigang na naman ako sa alak. Hindi nila ako inaalok. Alam naman kasi nila na hindi ako umiinom. Kaya nanahimik na lang ako sa bahay. Hahaha. 

• Pampalipas oras
• Bonding time ng barkada
• Pampaalis stress
• Pampalimot ng problema
• Pampalabas ng hinanakit at sama ng loob
• Pampalakas ng loob
• Pampa-ALAM NA.

Hindi naman ako tomadero. Pero, ano itong nararamdaman ko? HAHAHA. Samahan niyo ako, please? :))

30 Day Challenge.

Will be doing these for the next 30 Days. We'll see.

I don't feel like doing anything.