BUHAY BAHAY.

Minsan yung kahit sarili mong bahay mo, ayaw mo ng uwian.

nakakaewan lang kasi sa bahay. Alam mo yung pakiramdam na nobody really cares. Nagagawa lang nilang magtiyaga. Or nagagawa lang nila yun kasi parte sila ng pamilya mo. Parte sila ng buhay mo. Or responsibilidad kasi nila yun.

Nawawala lang yung sense ng bahay. Gusto ko siya ituring na TAHANAN, hindi lang BAHAY. 

A home is where you feel loved. Or you are cared. Or you are something special. A home is where you are never left behind. Kaso hindi e. Nagiging silungan na lang siya. yung tipong at the end of the day, doon ka lang uuwi kasi wala ka naman ibang tirahan eh. Tapos magtataka sila at mas gusto natin sa ibang bahay. Or mas masaya tayo pag kasama natin ng iba. Kasi doon natin nahahanap yung nawawala sa atin. Kung meron ba nun sa bahay, madali natin ito mamimiss. Kaso .. WALA eh. Sadyang WALA lang talaga.

Wala naman pefect family pero everything is just too much. Minsan mas masarap nga naman malayo. Magpapamiss ka lang. Thinking if they would really care.

Anyway, Good Morning.

Kapag pinapagalitan kayo. Sa ISIP kayo SUMASAGOT o sa ISIP kayo NAGDADABOG ?

— Eh bawal kasi diretsuhan. CURIOUS lang. :DD

We can never go back and change what has been done, but we can always earn the lesson learned to make things better next time.

Example: PAGPAPAGUPIT. ;(

Those days that you feel that no one really cares.

— Saddest days of life.

Anyway, Good Morning.

Ang hirap ng binabantay ka na ng parents mo sa lahat ng ginagawa mo.

Simula kasi nun umuwi si Papa. Nabawasan na yung pagcocomputer ko. Hindi na din ako masyadong nakakapagTumblr kasi hanggang 10 lang daw ito pwedeng bukas. Kahit sa TV. Napakastrict. Ang hirap magpalaki ng magulang. HAHAHA.

Naninibago na tuloy ang katawan ko at maaga na natutulog. Minsan nga pakiramdam ko gising pa din yung diwa ko kahit na tulog ako. Ganon ako kaadik magpuyat. Inaabot ako dati ng 3am. E ngayon ? HAHAHA.

Bakasyon lang naman dito si Papa from abroad. Di naman sa masaya ako kung aalis na siya, pero sasaya ako kung magiging maluwag lang naman siya sa rules niya.

KARAPATAN NA KAYA ANG PAGGAMIT NG INTERNET.

At nalalabag na ang karapatan ko. At mag-iisang linggo na. Hayaan mo na, magbabakasyon silang lahat sa probinsya at maiiwan na naman ako sa bahay mag-isa. And it’s time to party party ! HAHAHAH.

Namimiss lang kita Tumblr. Namimiss ko na din kayo. ;)

Pain.

One day, I asked myself.. “where is God when it hurts?”. I kept on calling, i kept on knocking, I kept on seeking, but nothing happens. I did what I could do. But, nothing happens. Nothing good happens. I was at the end of my rope. Something held me back. It was an undeniably strong force that was attracting my heart to hold on. It was the love of God.

I asked him, “where we’re you? i felt like you left me..“ But no, he was there all along. Whenever we feel pain, Jesus was just right beside us, telling us to hold on. And, never trusting and believing that God could do a beautiful even out of it.

If you are feeling pain right now, remember to look up. Look up, and see the smiling face of God reminding you to “Keep on. Never give up. Keep the good fight of faith. I am always here, in control of everything. I will never leave you because that’s how much I love you.”

Just try to reflect on what God wants you to hear from hear today.

God bless you! :) 

Waiting;

For you, because I know you’re worth it. I know you may not think it, but to me, you really are. I don’t care what others say that you may be this or that, because to me, none of it is true. They don’t know you like I do. They haven’t been through all those things like you and I did. You know, I’m amazed, because through all the things we’ve been through, you stayed by my side. You were always there for me. Through all the bullshit that occurred in both of our lives, you always cared about me. You still loved me even if I gave you a hard time. You always did your best to keep me happy. I understand everything that happened between us that caused both good and bad times must’ve happened for a reason. I want to take this time to get stronger. I always stuck to the promises, I know I’ve never broken any of them before. Remember the night when you cried to me and said that you were afraid that one day I’d just go off and leave you or find someone else. Remember when I promised you that I’d never leave your side and that you’ll always be the one I truly love. Well, it’s been about 4 months now, look where we are now, I still kept the promise, because you’re still the only one in my heart. But you know, it’s sad. Because you’re no longer by my side anymore and yeah .. it hurts. It hurts me deeply inside. You were someone who always kept me happy, always kept this dorky smile upon my face. Seeing you walk off just hurts. But I understand why you had to, even if going away hurts the both of us .. There were so many memories that meant so much to me. But you see, I want to create new memories with you. I made up my mind. Even if I’m dying inside, even if the pain overwhelms me at times, I’ve decided to wait for you. I don’t want anyone else to take your place, so I’ll just keep you right there in a special place in my heart. And one more thing, let me just say, I miss you. I love you.

6. Stress.

Stress is one of the most destructive thing in life. It is a major health factor. If not handled properly, it would cost a lot of damage to you and to the ones around you. Stress is controllable and uncontrollable. It could start when you are “over-committed” to something. People should learn how to say “No”.

Stress will either help you or hurt you. It has the power to make you give up, or keep you going. It could work for us, or against us. It could help us to become better or bitter.

But we have to understand that, too much stress is not from God. In Matthew 11:28, Jesus said, “Come to me all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” This is an assurance that God’s loads for us are light and easy to carry.

Right now, If Jesus would ask you, “Are you willing to surrender those to me?”. Would you like to give him those unnecessary burden and stress that you carry? Would you? He is more than willing to take your loads. He loves you that much.

God bless you! :)