PASKO NA NAMAN.

Masaya naman ang Pasko ko.

Oo naman. Wala man engrandeng handaan, di man kumpleto ang pamilya, wala man Christmas tree at hindi man ako nageexpect ng regalo kinabukasan, masaya ang naging Pasko ko.

Bakit ?

• Kasi atleast may handa kami. Hindi man carbonara, wala man palitaw, fried chicken at hindi man naluto ang hamon, ang mahalaga may pinagsaluhan kami. Ang mahalaga nabusog kami. I feel sad for those na walang handa ngayong Pasko especially nyung mga tinamaan ng bagyo. I uttered a prayer for them We uttered a prayer for them. It's one of the best things we can do. Talagang sila ang nagturo sa akin MAGING KUNTENTO. 
• Kasi tumawag si Mama at si Papa. Dito rin nagpasko ang pinsan ko from Bacolod. Wala man sila dito, nararamdaman naman namin ang presensya nila. Na kahit malayo sila, nagawa pa rin naman maparamdaman ang Pasko sa kanila. Simpleng bati nga lang daw okay na. Nahohome sick din. At isa yung halimbawa na ipakita mo yun love sa kanila. Family will be always family. MAHALIN MO SILA HANGGA'T MAY CHANCE KA PA. 
• Kasi atleast may bahay kami. Ilang beses na din muntik masunugan itong barangay namin. And Thank You Lord talaga. Di kami napaano and everything. Pinanghawakan ko yung verse na sabi ni Lord, "Your tent will not be in harm". And hindi nga. THE LORD REALLY PROTECTS AND WATCHES OVER HIS CHILDREN.
• Kasi atleast ako may mabibigay. Nasanay kasi ako ng ako lagi ang binibigyan. Nasanay ako na ako lagi ang meron. Hindi nga naman masama ang maghangad para sa sarili. Pero lahat ng sobra masama. Kadamutan na iyon. So I learn to save and give to others. Kahit na maliit lang ang budget, sinisgurado ko na galing yun sa puso no ! And a prayer, minsan yun lang kasi ang kaya kong ibigay. :))) Silver and gold I have none sabi sa bible pero ang tanging mabibigay niya any prayers. And that means a lot. Natuto ako magbigay hindi lang sa ibang tao but more especially sa pamilya ko. Ika nga, IT IS BETTER TO GIVE THAN TO RECEIVE.

This month is the Season of LOVE AND GIVING. Sama mo na din ang FORGIVING, PEACE, UNDERSTANDING, UNITY etc. Eto lang yung ilan sa mga lessons na natutunan ko today. And to us, nawa hindi lang ito December. Sabi nga, Let everyday be Christmas day. HIndi sa handaan or dekorasyon nasusukat yun, masyadong literal eh. But it is within the spirit and within the heart.

Ang haba na. HAHAHA.

Merry Christmas & Godbless. ;)

"Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ." ~ 1 Corinthians 1:3

Ngayon ko lang narealize na 1 week na lang, 2012 na.

-- GRABE lang. :)))

Inenjoy ko lang.

Tonight, inenjoy ko lang ang sarili ko.

HAHAHAHA. Nothing green pero nagenjoy lang talaga ako. Okay nga eh. Walang gastos. Pagod lang at oras. What I mean is ginawa kong stress free ang araw ko. Namasyal ako, este kami pala.

First time kong makasama mamasyal si Ate Jackie. Actually, we planned for a foot spa pero ang layo sa plano yunug nangyari. Since sarado yung salon dahil una hindi namin siya mahanap yun pala sarado na pala talaga siya, nagdecide na lang kaming magwindow shopping. HAHAHA. Nasa Monumento na naman kami eh so we grabbed the chance na tumingin sa Victory Mall.

Namili ng bag, ng damit at kung anu-ano pa. Kaso, salamat sa Christmas rush, nagmahalan lahat sila. I mean yung presyo. HAHAHAHA. Kaya we ended up buying pizza pauwi. Akala nga namin may manlilibre sa amin kaso wala din pala. Sinamahan narin namin ng coke float para may panulak.

Then we walked on our way home. Puro lang kami tawa. Well. kailangan ko din naman maging masaya. :)))

RANTS lang.

Anyway, naririnig ko na ang simbang gabi.

May chapel kasi na malapit dito sa amin. Di din naman kami nagagaganoon. Saka ko lang napagtanto na sobrang late na pala. Di pa rin ako tulog. EWAN KO BA. Insomnia maybe. Pero something's keeping me up. And di ko yun alam.

Last year, gising pa rin ako nun. Ganitong araw, ganitong oras, ganitong scenario. Ang cool lang. Parang deja vu. Yun nga, di ako makatulog, same reason tulad ng lat year. At nagblog na lang din kasi walang magawa. Puro lang naman rants. Pero ang tagal ko lang kasi di nagblog. Kulang lang ng motivation sa akin. Pero okay naman ako. Badtrip lang kasi itong pc na nagloloko.

4am na daw pala sabi ni Des. Parehas kami nasa twitter ngayon eh. Gusto ko lang mabuhay ng masaya. Pero mukhang nakakapimple. HAHAHAHA. Kaso wala lang. When I think about my life, nakakadepress lang. I really look like a backslider. Di ko alam kung bakit pero ewan. Saka ko na iintindihin, saka ko na aayusin. For now, magpapakasaya muna ako. PERO sana, sana lang, TOMORROW WON'T BE TOO LATE.

Pag di daw makatulog, may nag-iisip o nanaginip sa iyo.

Siguro nga. Swerte ko naman. Pero kawawa naman siya, kung sino man siya.
Well. Sabi ko sa inyo eh. Mejo masaya ako. MEDYO LANG.

Yung feeling na pag walang makain, gutom ka pero pag merong BUFFET, feeling busog ka naman.

HAHAHA. Ngayon yun.

At eto ako ngayon kumakain ng pancit canton. Mukhang nabitin talaga ako sa party. Or ayaw ko lang magmukhang PG. Either way, kakain pa din ako ngayon. Eh madali naman kasi ako magutom.

Ewan ko. Di naman siguro PATAY GUTOM. :)))

Christmas Party.

Ang saya ko lang.

Galing ako sa isang Christmas Party na sobrang kinatamaran kong attendan. But, GRABE. Ang dami palang naging benefits nun. Bukod sa nabusog ako at naging masaya. Ang dami kong natanggap na pagpapala.

At first nanalo ako sa pick-up. HAHAHA. Doon talaga ako mahusay eh. Di na ako nagtangka sumali sa ibang games kasi di naman ako ganoon ka-athletic. Well, nanalo naman ako sa pick-up as BOY KULOT. Ngayon ko lang natanggap na kulot ako. And hindi nga naman lahat ng kulot, salot. :))

The highlight is yung raffle. At first I was praying na kahit yung blender na lang. Kaso, hindi pinalad. Tapos yung Sony Player. The good thing, napunta siya sa tito ko. :DD After yung oven & yung raffle money kaso wala eh. Akala ko hamon na lang. Pero nung tawagin yung nanalo para sa best prize, ang WASHING MACHINE, ako pala ! Sobrang nagtatalon ako sa tuwa. :))))

May mga natanggap pa akong mini gifts. HAHAHA. Saya langs.

Salamat Lord sa sandamakmak na pagpapala mo. :D

Number 1

F you were born on the:

1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.
2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.
3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.
4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.
5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.
6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.
7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.
8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.
9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

Number 1
You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous
on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You
always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most
likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are
likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most
likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a
spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you
will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of
the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in
your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you &
your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a
pioneer, independent & original your best match is 4, 6, 8 while a good match
would be with 3,5,7

Number 2
No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You
day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for
every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change
according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of
musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet
as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a
sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a businessperson. You
are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you
settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you
are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will
sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad
vision. You make a well-balanced person. Your best match is 2, 7,5, and 9 no
other people can put up with you!!!

Number 3
You are hardhearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots
of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope
with everything. You seem to have your way in everything. And from birth you
would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want. You always make a point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are
not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you. A tough player you are! But
once you are comfortable with someone, it will be a lasting friendship. You
always earn respect from others. Your Ilk seems to have lots of worries and
problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love
money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look
after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being
generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom,
creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5

Number 4
You are very stubborn, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in
life, very cool and helpful. You might repel people away from you, you may cause
nuisance to others if you area man, as you gifted are with understanding other
people's problems. If you are a girl, you excel in your studies and arts. If you
are a guy you spend most of your time with girl friends and you tend to have too
much fun with your mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and
get on with their life and you will be left empty handed. So be careful! You
love to spend. Your positive side is that you are always around to help family
and friends. You always fall in love with those younger than you. You often live
with disappointments but you will take good care of your family. You need to be
careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart (ahaks!). And
beware of your relationships too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a
hit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order. Your best match 1, 8. Good
match 5, 6, and 7

Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down
you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships - even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You
learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8.

Number 6
Ooopppss... You were born to enjoy! You don't care about others. I mean you
always wanted to have a lifetime of enjoyment. You will excel in either
education or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people
who you think are nice), and popular. All good things come easily to you. Your
mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveable by any number. But
if you are a number 6 men, you will be involved in more than a few relationships
until you get married. If you are a girl, most of you will get married/engaged
early. You are a caring person towards your family and friends. You are a person
of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and
after all you can heal this world's wounds to make peace for everyone because
you have the great power and caring talent to take the world of love one step
further.. Your best match 7, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5

Number 7
You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy. Your
best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4

Number 8
You have a very strong personality and people will find it hard to understand
you. You are more likely to suffer in your younger years. You might be also the
one responsible to look out for your family. You often suffer all the way
through life. You will learn life in a very practical way. You are the one who
will fight for justice and may even die in the war too. You are normally very
reserved with a handful of friends and most of the time, live life alone and
always prepared to help others. However, once you settle down, (which is often
late), then your had lucks will disappear. You will face unexpected problems
such as encountering poisonous animals, and accidents. You are highly-
disciplined, persistence, and courageous, and it is your strength that will take
you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your
Best match 1, 4 and 8. Good match 5

Number 9
You guys are the most incompatible people in the world. You are so strong,
physically and mentally. You often have big-aims. You will work hard and will
think it's still hard to get there, even if you already have gotten there!
Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will
have to fight in life. You are respected by others. You were however very
naughty in your childhood, and often got beaten up by your parents and had been
involved in fights and you seemed to have suffered lots of injuries. But when
you grow older you become calm and will fall into the quiet and dignified macho
type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are however good in engineering or
banking jobs because people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but
you will always worry over your children. Your finer qualities are that you are
humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve
targets and serve every one equally without any prejudice. You are a role model
for everyone. Your best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2

Goodnight.

Last one. Sobrang saya lang sa naachieve ko. YEEEY !


Goodnight.

Yung walang kasaing sarap na feeling na natapos mo ang case study mo.

Natapos ko dn itype ang aking case study and process recording.

Yung akala mo hindi na matatapos. Natapos din. Sabi na eh. Onting tiyaga lang yan. Wala na akong ittype. Bukas, iprprint ko na lang lahat at ipaparing-bind ko ng Pink (eeew, pink) na cover. Pink kasi ang napagpanalunan sa JakEnPoy. Sayang hindi blue. Para narin akong nagtratrabaho sa oras na gising ako. Taas nadin ng kuryenta, malamang.

Pero ang bottomline is. NATAPOS KO DIN. Thank you Lord.

5am na. Kailangan ko na matulog. May sasamahan pa ako sana magpuyat pero mukhang di ko na kakayanin. Manunuod pa sana ako ng glee pero hindi ko na yun maiinitidihan. Babawiin ko na lahat ng lakas ko no ! WOOOO. Mahaba-habnag pahinga. HAHAHHA.

Nag-aalarm na ang cellphone ko. Supposedly, I should be asleep. Pero matutulog pa lang ako. Kaya, Goodnight na. Wew. Sarap lang talaga ng feeling. Kahit na gutom. KAYA YAN.

Sabi na eh, tiis-tiis lang. Kaya, bring it on.

stuDYING.

Eh yung 4 days straight ng puyat ?

AKO YUN.

Puro kasi case study. Ang daming kailangan isipin. Ang daming kailangan gawin. Ang daming kailangan i-analyze. Nakakalugaw ng utak ang maging nursing student. Isa pa, nakakahiya naman kasi case study ginagawa niyo. Alangan naman na magpasa ka lang ng 5 pages dun. Ang kailangan madibdibang pag-aaral talaga. Masusing pag-aaral. Marubdob na pagaanalisa. Ano pa ?! Lahat na. 

Friday na pasahan nito. Process recording na lang naman ang kulang. Yuung tipong isusulat niyo lahat ng napag-usapan niyo ni patient. And malamang, maalala mo yun. 4 days yun at nasa kalahatian pa lang ako. UGH. Kaya yan.

Dagdag pa ang daming household chores bukas. Na kailangan na ito iprint at iring bind at kung anu-ano pa. Natotoxic ako. First time ko lang kasi magindividual. Challenging nga naman talaga. :))))

Isama ang nagchillax ng 2 araw kakaMOVIE MARATHON.

Hahaha. Pahinga at its fullest ako kasama ng butihing barkada na dito pa talaga natulog. They shall not be named for their privacy & safety. :)))))

Ngayon, back to work uli. Nasum-up ko ung week ko. Hahaha. Puro lang naman din kasi ganito. Haaaaay. Buhay estudyante nga naman talaga.

Tiis-tiis lang.

PAGOD.

Natapos ko din ang aking scheduled work. Bukas ko na itutuloy. Next time na ako magblog. :(

Goodnight.

Laughtrip.

Boy: Hi, may BF ka?
Girl: Meron, sino ka?
Boy: Papa mo to, humanda ka lang pag uwi ko!

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(Another Unknown Text.)

Boy: Hi, may BF ka??
Girl: Wala no, di uso sakin yan. Sino ka pala??
Boy: Boyfriend mo to, sinaktan mo na naman ako :(
Girl: Oh, sorry babe. I thought ikaw si Papa.
Boy: Yes! Ako nga to, Papa mo!! Humanda ka lang talaga pag uwi ko, bibitayin kita babae ka!!

Goodnight.

Matutulog na lang. Kesa may maalala pa.

Goodnight.

WALAAAA.

May mga araw lang talaga na kahit sobrang gusto mo magblog, di mo kaya.

Parang tinatamad ka. May reason naman eh. Wala lang motivation. Nagkulang lang sa push. Sayang lang din naman kung di mo mablog.

Kaso ganon talaga. Next time na lang ako mageffort.

^THIS.

Exactly sums up my day. Eh totoo din naman. Kaya yan.
December optimistic nalang dapat.

Goodnight. :)

Kung sakaling nababasa mo ito ..










CONGRATULATIONS ! 


Iniinvade mo na kasi ang privacy ko. Salamat. ;)

Bye, November. Hello December

First day na ng December.

Pagkatapos ng buwan na ito, New Year na naman. Pero bago yun, ito munang month na ito ang haharapin ko. Ewan ko lang kung paano.

Ang dami ko kasing ineexpect and ang dami kasing magbabago. Yung mga bagay na akala mo pare-parehas lang araw-araw, ay may nagagawang pagbabago pala. Parang wala, pero when you look back, may nagbabago pala.

Bumalik na ako sa Facebook. Isang malaking pagbababgo yun para sa akin. 1 month ndin ako nawala and I’m telling you hindi yun madali ah. Yan palang ang isa sa mga desisyon ko before this year ends. 

Unang araw palang. Meron pang 30 days left. Ang daming pwedeng mangyari doon. Tiis tiis lang. Things change for the better. So, bago man matapos ang taon, I’ll make the most out of this moments. Who knows about what will happen tomorrow ? You’ll never know naman talaga eh. Ngayon, I’ll think positive and keep my hopes & faith up. And maybe changing for the best.

Bye November. Salamat sa experiences mo.

Hello, December na ! Please be kind. :D

Moderately lang dapat.

Naranasan mo na bang mahiga dahil sa sobrang kalasingan ?

Yeah, I passed out last night.

OO. Mukhang napadami nga ako ng inom. Hahaha. Di naman sa natutuwa ako pero it’s been two years since nun huli ko yung naranasan. Di ko naman din gusto yung feeling pero siguro nga namiss ko lang. What a terrible things to miss. :))))

As in, nagsleep over na lang ako kasi hindi ko na din kayang umuwi. 3am na kasi kami natapos & so far yun na pianakamarami kong inom. Mababa din kasi yung tolerance ko sa alcohol. Ang tapang eh no. Kahit hanggang kaninang kaninang pag-uwi ko, di ako malakad ng maayos. Buong mundo ko ang umiikot. Pero mas terible yung kagabi, feeling ko gusto ko na lang humiga sa daan at ayaw ko na din bumagon sa kama ng kaklase ko. Gladly, madami kami kaya tulungan. Hindi din naman lahat nalasing ng grabe.

Kumain na lang ako ng pancit canton & uminom ng maraming btubig pag-uwi. Naghhyperventilating rin ako kagabi pa. Kaya ginawa ko na lahat ng nursing inyervention na alam ko. Fortunately, may nabasa akong pampawala ng hangover sa isang broadsheet kamakailan. Nahandle ko naman ang sarili ko ng maayos, I guess. Bottomline, nakatulog ako.

Ngayon masakit pa din ang ulo ko. Nagpromise na ata ako na kokontrolin ko na lang next time, kung may next time pa. Hahahaha.

Lesson ? Drink Moderately. Siempre. :))))

Goodnight na.

Matutulog na pala ako.

Pero anong kaibahan ngayon sa mga dati kong pagtulog ? Hindi dahil sa sobrang pagod ako. Hindi dahil sa sobrang aga ngayon. Hindi din dahil sa bago ang kama ko o unan ko. Wala pa din namang aircon ang kwarto ko. 

Ito ay dahil sa .. Katabi ko yung kapatid ko. :))

Ang babaw ba ? Hindi para sa akin eh. It’s been a long time since na naging magkatabi kami. & ngayon na nag-out-of-town si Lola, wala tuloy siyang katabi. Sanay na naman siya, pero wala lang. Mas okay na yung ramdam niyang kuya niya ako. Mejo may bonding pa muna siguro. Namiss ko lang yung brother moments namin. 

One week kaming ganito so I’ll make the most out of it. Goodnight na. :DD

Makikinig ka lang naman.

Masaya naman pala.


Alam mo yung pakiramdam na kahit gaano kahirap yung ginagawa mo, masaya pa rin bandang huli ? AKO YUN.

I am currently having my duty at NCMH. Oo, yun yung Mental Hospital sa Mandaluyong. Yes, hindi normal yung pasyente ko. Yes, hindi sila ganon kaayos kausap. Yes, maguguluhan ka sa kanila. Pero, they still deserve to be treated well.

Masarap sila kausap. You will still learn from them. And kahit na mahirap, minsan toxic pa dahil kasabay ng duty ang sandamakmak na case study at kung anu-ano pang paperworks, masarap yung nakakatulong ka. Ang ginhawa ng pakiramdam na nakakaalis ka ng problema.

My patient told me, who is a strict suicidal patient, na ang tanging bagay lang na nagpapasaya sa kanya ay kapag nakakapagusap kami. Sobrang nakakaburyo nga naman sa loob. Tapos minsan hindi ka pa nadadalaw dba ?


BOTTOMLINE ? Hindi lang naman sila ang nalulungkot at nangangailangan ng kausap. Malay mo, yung kaibigan mo pala, kaklase, kapitbahay o kamag-anak mo ay kailangan ng kausap. Just be there. Minsan, hindi na natin kailangan magbigay ng advice, LISTENING is the BEST THERAPY you could ever give. 

Action Figures

In my daily bible readings, I just reached Nehemiah.

Right at the start, Nehemiah finds out that the Jews who left Babylon and were tasked with fixing up Jerusalem hadn’t done much of anything. Years have gone by, and Jerusalem is still a mess.

Nehemiah cries. Then he prays. Then, he gets to work.

Nehemiah asks the kings permission to head to Jerusalem to help in the rebuilding effort. When Nehemiah gets there, he puts together an action plan and sets the people of Jerusalem to work. 

They are repeatedly attacked by the nearby people who do not want Jerusalem to be a strong city again. So the bible says that the men who rebuilt the wall of Jerusalem had a trowel in one hand and a sword in the other. When it was time to build, they built. When it was time to defend, they defended. And they didn’t stop until the work was complete.

James 1:22 tells us that we should not just listen to God’s word, but that we should do what it says.

God seems to like people of action.

Abraham packed up and left his homeland when God called him.

Joseph took charge when given the opportunity and mobilized a nation to prepare for a famine.

Do I even need to mention David, the warrior-poet?

Solomon, was probably the most ‘thinker’ type person in the Bible, yet he was the hands-on ruler of the kingdom of Israel. He didn’t just sit around idle all day, but he built up wealth for himself and the whole kingdom, wrote extensively, networked with other kingdoms, etc.

One of the most prolific writers in the Bible, Paul, was like an ancient Indiana Jones. He travelled the world, getting himself into huge trouble, but never giving up. (see 2 Cor 11:23-28)

God wants us to be people of action. Action figures, so to speak.

I just don’t see anywhere in the scriptures to indicate that people of faith are defined by sitting around for a couple hours a week at a church.

William Carrey, a man widely regarded as ‘the father of modern missions’, and one of the early missionaries to work in India said it like this: “Attempt great things for God, expect great things from God.”

I couldn’t agree more. You’re not here to fit it. You’re here to make a difference. “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” (Romans 12:2)

God has cast you as a main character in his story. And you know what? It’s an action movie. There’s gonna be some crazy stunts. You could get hurt. People who do their own stunts frequently do.

But you know what you’ll never say later in life? “I wish I had been more boring. I wish I had taken fewer risks and tried fewer new things.”

Take a look around you. It may upset you. You may weep. You may pray. But then, get up and start doing something about it. Find a charity working in an area that really moves your heart: orphans, drug addicts, homeless, whatever. And get involved.

Roll up your sleeves and become the Action Figure God has called you to be! 

WAPAKELS.

Yung feeling ng nakumpleto kami uli.

Siempre, sobrang sarap. Kahit na mejo bitin ang pagkain, sapat na yan. Kahit na mejo walang budget, pagkasyahin na yan. Kahit na ubos na ang inorder na pagkain, sige kwentuhan lang. Kahit na ginagabi na, sige tuloy lang. At kahit na lahat kami naiistress, sige tawanan lang.

Walang kasing saya yung araw. Yung feeling na finally, nagkaroon din ng oras ang bawat isa para sa bawat isa. Walang busy, walang late ang uwi. Walang homework na kailangan gawin. Walang kulang yung pera. Walang hindi pinayagan ng magulang. Lahat pwede. Okay lang yan. Basta nagkasama-sama.

Mejo mababaw ako pag nagkukumpleto kami eh. Sobrang saya langs. Tiyaga-tiyaga lang sa ganito. Tiis-tiis lang sa ganyan. Atleast buo kami. Oo, nakakabobo nga naman pag kanya-kanyang course ang pinag-uusapan. Mapapa-ano daw ? Mapapa-teka lang ah ! Kasi hindi naman nagkakaintindihan. Kahit na minsan manghang-manhga o nandidiri sa mga kwento, tuloy lang. Tapos pag nagkwento na ng kanya-kanyang buhay, pwedeng magtawanan. O kaya pag problemang pag-ibig, pamilya o iba pa, may iyakan pero magpapalakasan na lang, tapos idadaan sa tawanan uli. May tampuhan man nagaganap pero at the end, pang-unawa na lang.

Tapos saka aalalahanin ang High school days. Pagtatawanan na lang namin ang lahat. Yeah, magkakaklase kasi kami nun Hayskul. Oo, nagkikita parin kami. Oo, close na close na close na close parin kami. Sabi nga, your college friends may know your attitude but your high school friends know the reason beyond it. Wala pa rin tatalo sa kanila. Sabi nga ng isang Chinese proverb, "Old clothes are the best.Just like friends." HAHAHA.

Talagang lahat ginawan ng paraan. At umaasa naman ako na mauulit yun. Alam ko naman na mageffort ang lahat. Kasi ganyan talaga pag magkakaibigan, walang iwanan. Awww.

Starting the day right.

Mejo hindi nga ako kumain. HAHAHAH. Starting the day right.


But not my point. Today I'll start the day right. I'll start my day with a smile. Kahit na mejo mahirap. Kahit na parang imposible kasi ang dami-daming nangyayari. Alam mo yung tipong sobrang gulo lang.


Yun pag tinanong ka kung Kamusta ka, pilit na lang sa loob mo sumagot ng Oo. Epekto na rin ng makulimlim na araw na mukhang uulan. Malamig ang pakiramdam ko at nanghihina na rin.


Oo, nanghihina narin sa lahat ng aspeto. Pero kaya yan. Para sa isang magandang umaga na sinimulan ng tama.


Thumbs up.

Please be normal.

Gusto ko bumalik sa normal ang lahat.

Yung parang katulad na dati. Pero hindi naman ako nageexpect. Oo things will be never the same agaian pero siguro naman kahit kaunti meron babalik dba ? Kahit naman hindi lahat atleast meron.

Yun lang yung masakit. Mamiss mo yung mga bagay na yun. Na dapat hindi. Na dapat nagmomove on ka na. Kaso wala ka naman magawa. Mas masaya nga naman ang dati kaysa sa mga bagay na nararanasan mo noon. Minsan, iisipin mo sana bata ka na lang uli. Para walang problema. Para mas masaya. Pero ano nga naman ang thrill ng isang buhay pag walang problema. Parang isang movie na wala man lang kontrabida. yung tipong pasayaw-sayaw langs siya sa saya asabuong palabas. Ugh. Korny na, boring pa.

Anyway, things happen for a reason. It may be stormy now but it can't rain forever. Gaganda din yan. Siguro hindi nga katulad ng dati. We really have to wake up in the reality that nothing's permanent in this world but change. 


Hindi nga katulad ng dati. But why settle for less ? Malay mo, mas masaya na at mas maganda. BETTER PA PALA KAYSA SA DATI.

11/11/11 11:11PM

I never really want to miss this chance. And Yes I did it ! 

And I had my wish. And believing it will come true. :D 

Hello November na! What memorable thing have you done this October? :)

Enjoy my life. ;)

Kill your limbos.

HURT.

Hurt is the reaction of the heart when it disagrees with what the mind tells us. The fact that we are getting hurt means we know what to do, we just can't accept it.

THE END.

Atleast we ended it with a prayer.


Mahirap nga naman mag-let go. Pero with the right reason and with the right timing for us, natanggap naman namin ng maluwag. Gusto lang muna namin magmature at lumago sa Lord. Siya muna bago ang aming mga sarili. Atleast, hindi kami selfish or possessive dba ?


And focus muna sa buhay namin. Saka na ang lovelife. Everything is beautiful in His time. Isang gabing puno ng iyakan & yakapan. May kiss pro hindi naman yung grabe. Naging dependent na kami sa bawat isa kaya hindi nadn nagiging maganda. Nagiging masikip na. So we decided to part ways. Para naman sa ikakabuti namin yun eh.


Mahirap. Kahit sino naman hindi madaling magpakawala ng taong sobrang minahal na dba ? Di lang siguro ngayon ang panahon. So we stopped it. Bago pa man lumala. Wala akong masabi. Sobrang mahal ko siya pero kung hahayaan ko na lang siyang maging down at tuluyan mawala kay Lord ? Anong klaseng pagmamahal yun dba ?


So kahit MASAKIT, kaya yan. Para kay Lord eh. Maglilingkod muna kami. Ika nga, Let His will be done. First time ko din umiyak sa isang babaeng mahal ko. HAHHA. Ako na korni. Eh, di ako iyakin eh. I try to cry kapag ako nalang mag-isa. Pero sa sobrang bigat. HIndi ko kinaya. Napaluhod na din ako. Like I'm pleading. Sabi ko nga, parehas lang sila ni Mama, pinapaiyak ako. I try to laugh & smile at times pero sobrang sakit lang. Napayakap pa ako kay Lola pauwi. Siempre, takang taka siya. Sabi ko lang wala lang, may sipon lang ako.


Yeah it hurts. But the best part about it ? Is we did what we know is right. 


Pero bago nun, jamming muna kasama si Dicky, Edwatrd, Dess & Ynnep sa bahay nila Micah. Nun pauwi na saka ko sila pinauna (kahit nun una ayaw ko kasi hindi naman ako magaling sa pagpapaliwanag). Then madaming nangyari. The bottom line ? I think we'll be doing better. I saved our last texts for this night.


M: Sumasakit ung ulo ko =( Wala lang salamat sa lahat ng bagay. At mahal na mahal kita. Last na muna to na sasabihan kita nyan .. Sa tamang panahon na ng Lord ung susunod =) Kaya lulubusin ko na muna ha ? Mahal na mahal kasi talaga kita e. Mahal na mahal na mahal. Pero dapat nga naman mas mahal natin si Lord. Kaya. Ayun. tulog na.


A: Sige sa iyo na itong last kong2. Asahan ka namin ni Lord. Hindi kasi kita mahal kung hahayaan lang kita mawala sa Kanya. Last na din ito for now. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW. Salaamat sa lahat & Sorry. Si Lord na muna. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Matulog na. Goodnight. I LOVE YOU ULI> Tandaan mo yan ah. ;)


(nabura niya ito kasi naghang yung phone niya pero isesend ko na lang bukas. Yun lang yung napag-usapan namin until .. )


A: Okay po. Goodnight. For the last time: I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH. I LOVE YOU.


M: Okay. Magpahinga ka na ! And for the .. ayokong sabihin na last .. OO hindi muna ngayon pero sa future. Kapag inallow ni Lord. Basta. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA. I LOVE YOU SOOO. Tandaan mo yan ah. Ikaw lang. Di ka mawawala sa akin.




Mejo possessive pa rin siya sa huli. Pero I believe sa proper timing na ni Lord. There is a time for everything sabi nga sa Bible.

Eto lang yung nangyari today. Kabilang na yung nagtithes & offering exhorter ako. Nagturo sa mga bata. And mejo nadisappoint kasama ng isang kaibigan. Pero all is well.



Salamat Lord. Praise God pa rin ! 

You just crossed the line. That's it. I've had enough.

Merienda na uli.

Dulce de Leche for Merienda.

Magandang Hapon na naman siguro.
Hapon na ako nagising at may pimple na naman ako. United Nations' Day kasi ni Remuel kaya mejo may lakad kami ngayon. HAHAHA. At di nakain ang cake kanina, inuwi na namin at kami na ang nagsalo-salo. Masarap naman eh. Brazo de Mercedes sana kaso masyadong matamis na hindi na makakain ng iba. Pero, favorite ko yun. Nanghinayang din ako.

Balik na ako sa bloging inustry. Mejo mag-iingat nalang kasi hindi na secrets ang post ko. HAHAH. Kailangan di na ako tamarin magblog.

Eto na lang kasi ang paraan para makapagexpress naman ako. Kahit na papaano. ;|

Wala na.

Eh kasi wala na akong maramdaman.

Siguro ito yung time kung bakit tumitigil ang isang tao. Kasi wala na siyang maramdaman. Kasi wala na siyang makitang dahilan. 

O kaya naman nagsasawa na. Paulit-ulit na lang. Yun at yun din naman. O hindi mo na kasi nagugustuhan. 

Nakakapagod lang. Kasi ang dami na din naapektuhan. Yung mga pagkakataon na wala ka ng choice kung hindi itigil na lang. Kasi kapag hindi lalala lang. 

Masakit. Mahirap. Pero alam mo yun yung tama. Ang problema lang hindi mo alam kung kaya mong magawa. 

Nakaklungkot lang.

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I am. I really am.

Kill your limbos.

How are you?

i'm fine, i guess.

Kill your limbos.

BUHAY BAHAY.

Minsan yung kahit sarili mong bahay mo, ayaw mo ng uwian.

nakakaewan lang kasi sa bahay. Alam mo yung pakiramdam na nobody really cares. Nagagawa lang nilang magtiyaga. Or nagagawa lang nila yun kasi parte sila ng pamilya mo. Parte sila ng buhay mo. Or responsibilidad kasi nila yun.

Nawawala lang yung sense ng bahay. Gusto ko siya ituring na TAHANAN, hindi lang BAHAY. 

A home is where you feel loved. Or you are cared. Or you are something special. A home is where you are never left behind. Kaso hindi e. Nagiging silungan na lang siya. yung tipong at the end of the day, doon ka lang uuwi kasi wala ka naman ibang tirahan eh. Tapos magtataka sila at mas gusto natin sa ibang bahay. Or mas masaya tayo pag kasama natin ng iba. Kasi doon natin nahahanap yung nawawala sa atin. Kung meron ba nun sa bahay, madali natin ito mamimiss. Kaso .. WALA eh. Sadyang WALA lang talaga.

Wala naman pefect family pero everything is just too much. Minsan mas masarap nga naman malayo. Magpapamiss ka lang. Thinking if they would really care.

Anyway, Good Morning.

Kapag pinapagalitan kayo. Sa ISIP kayo SUMASAGOT o sa ISIP kayo NAGDADABOG ?

— Eh bawal kasi diretsuhan. CURIOUS lang. :DD

We can never go back and change what has been done, but we can always earn the lesson learned to make things better next time.

Example: PAGPAPAGUPIT. ;(

Those days that you feel that no one really cares.

— Saddest days of life.

Anyway, Good Morning.

Ang hirap ng binabantay ka na ng parents mo sa lahat ng ginagawa mo.

Simula kasi nun umuwi si Papa. Nabawasan na yung pagcocomputer ko. Hindi na din ako masyadong nakakapagTumblr kasi hanggang 10 lang daw ito pwedeng bukas. Kahit sa TV. Napakastrict. Ang hirap magpalaki ng magulang. HAHAHA.

Naninibago na tuloy ang katawan ko at maaga na natutulog. Minsan nga pakiramdam ko gising pa din yung diwa ko kahit na tulog ako. Ganon ako kaadik magpuyat. Inaabot ako dati ng 3am. E ngayon ? HAHAHA.

Bakasyon lang naman dito si Papa from abroad. Di naman sa masaya ako kung aalis na siya, pero sasaya ako kung magiging maluwag lang naman siya sa rules niya.

KARAPATAN NA KAYA ANG PAGGAMIT NG INTERNET.

At nalalabag na ang karapatan ko. At mag-iisang linggo na. Hayaan mo na, magbabakasyon silang lahat sa probinsya at maiiwan na naman ako sa bahay mag-isa. And it’s time to party party ! HAHAHAH.

Namimiss lang kita Tumblr. Namimiss ko na din kayo. ;)

Pain.

One day, I asked myself.. “where is God when it hurts?”. I kept on calling, i kept on knocking, I kept on seeking, but nothing happens. I did what I could do. But, nothing happens. Nothing good happens. I was at the end of my rope. Something held me back. It was an undeniably strong force that was attracting my heart to hold on. It was the love of God.

I asked him, “where we’re you? i felt like you left me..“ But no, he was there all along. Whenever we feel pain, Jesus was just right beside us, telling us to hold on. And, never trusting and believing that God could do a beautiful even out of it.

If you are feeling pain right now, remember to look up. Look up, and see the smiling face of God reminding you to “Keep on. Never give up. Keep the good fight of faith. I am always here, in control of everything. I will never leave you because that’s how much I love you.”

Just try to reflect on what God wants you to hear from hear today.

God bless you! :) 

Waiting;

For you, because I know you’re worth it. I know you may not think it, but to me, you really are. I don’t care what others say that you may be this or that, because to me, none of it is true. They don’t know you like I do. They haven’t been through all those things like you and I did. You know, I’m amazed, because through all the things we’ve been through, you stayed by my side. You were always there for me. Through all the bullshit that occurred in both of our lives, you always cared about me. You still loved me even if I gave you a hard time. You always did your best to keep me happy. I understand everything that happened between us that caused both good and bad times must’ve happened for a reason. I want to take this time to get stronger. I always stuck to the promises, I know I’ve never broken any of them before. Remember the night when you cried to me and said that you were afraid that one day I’d just go off and leave you or find someone else. Remember when I promised you that I’d never leave your side and that you’ll always be the one I truly love. Well, it’s been about 4 months now, look where we are now, I still kept the promise, because you’re still the only one in my heart. But you know, it’s sad. Because you’re no longer by my side anymore and yeah .. it hurts. It hurts me deeply inside. You were someone who always kept me happy, always kept this dorky smile upon my face. Seeing you walk off just hurts. But I understand why you had to, even if going away hurts the both of us .. There were so many memories that meant so much to me. But you see, I want to create new memories with you. I made up my mind. Even if I’m dying inside, even if the pain overwhelms me at times, I’ve decided to wait for you. I don’t want anyone else to take your place, so I’ll just keep you right there in a special place in my heart. And one more thing, let me just say, I miss you. I love you.

6. Stress.

Stress is one of the most destructive thing in life. It is a major health factor. If not handled properly, it would cost a lot of damage to you and to the ones around you. Stress is controllable and uncontrollable. It could start when you are “over-committed” to something. People should learn how to say “No”.

Stress will either help you or hurt you. It has the power to make you give up, or keep you going. It could work for us, or against us. It could help us to become better or bitter.

But we have to understand that, too much stress is not from God. In Matthew 11:28, Jesus said, “Come to me all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” This is an assurance that God’s loads for us are light and easy to carry.

Right now, If Jesus would ask you, “Are you willing to surrender those to me?”. Would you like to give him those unnecessary burden and stress that you carry? Would you? He is more than willing to take your loads. He loves you that much.

God bless you! :)

7. Trusting God.

Proverbs 3:5-8 | Trust in the LORD with all your heart  and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyesfear the LORD and This will bring health to your bodyand nourishment to your bones.

Trusting is putting your whole weight on something or somebody. Whenever we are stressed, we tend to find our forever comfortable beds. Right? I had loads of moments in  my life when I open my door and all I want to do is to go directly to my bedroom and lay on my bed. Truth is, it is easier to trust a bed to carry us when we are troubled, stressed and so on than to trust God to carry our burdens.

Trusting God means you have to learn to unload every burden to him. And, we need to realize that everything is subject to change. We don’t own our lives. God owns us. We can’t and never can control everything. That’s God’s job.

Let me end this with a simple quote from Martin Luther.. “I have hold many things in my hands and I have lost them all. But whenever I put in God’s hands still I possess.“ Let’s learn to let go, and just let God handle things for us. We could be perfectly sure that things are happening for us, and not against us.

God bless you! :)